Wing It

To be honest, I'm just winging it: my life, my eyeliner, everything.

Wake up at 6 a.m., ride the bus, go to work from 8 a.m. to 5 p.m., go home - rest, and sleep. Each day it repeats add to the insecurity within the 25 years old me. There are just so many things that I would think I figured out by this age, but I am still.. winging it. 

Do you ever wonder what I do for life? No, I don't work in fashion. I have been working in IT from hardware to software. My job title right now is a Solution Architect, wonder what it is huh? me too.. My day to day is never the same, but basically I should be the communicator. I talk to the business people (clients) asking what do they do, what can we help to make their life easier and better? From there I'll pour in some ideas and generate solution. I would then bring my solution to the technical experts and orchestrate the developers to build the software. I am the middleman, that talks and bridges both the business side and the technical side. 

The job and task seem simple, but there are always different nuances and challenges, as basically my task is to make sure it gets done right. Do I love my job? Hmm.. I wouldn't say I LOVE it, but I don't hate it either. I think it's something I can go through with, something challenging, but sometimes just like every job, it comes with its own up and down sides, right? As much as I like being more practical and on-the-go, there are times where I feel this type of job being very abstract. Sometimes I feel like I am a do-er that likes to be hands-on, and this type of job sometimes limit me from doing so, from feeling accomplished. I think the biggest challenge of this type of job is being the bridge itself. It gets rough when you are getting criticism from both sides, and you are alone, the middleman. 

Top - Forever 21 | Skirt - Forever 21 | Necklace - Micha | Purse - Micha | Heels - Forever 21

All and all, like I said - I don't hate what I do. But is this truly what I would like to do my entire life? I don't know - I told you, I'm winging my life right now. As much as I can hold on to it, I will - but I'm not moving. I have been thinking, perhaps its the time to stop going with the flow and challenge myself a bit more.. because people regret things they don't do, rather than things they do. 

I have been questioning myself: what can I do - what will I be happy doing - what kind of sacrifice and challenges I am okay with doing. I have not found an answer, and I am afraid that I think about all these too late. While you see all your friends know exactly what their passions are, what they want to have in life, I don't.. exactly .. know. I thought by this age, I'd be settled - I know what I want to do for life, but I still have not found the answer. What do you guys think I would do great with? Any suggestions? How can I see life and goals differently? Give me some suggestions on the comment box below. 

Outside of my really emotional post, though, the outfit I am wearing is fun and sassy. I took this picture in front of the newly painted wall by Starburst: "I am a pink Starburst" - dudes, I am special! 

To match the wall, I would wear something feminine (I mean pink is the feminine color) and fun. So I think the best part of my body is my abs (even though I have no muscle); so wearing crop top is my favorite thing. To top it off, off shoulder crop top; so I can hide my ginormous arm! To match the top, I take this scuba material pastel pink skirt that looks super chic. I also put on my favorite statement necklace from Micha (pastel pink and violet color) and this super super super (you have no idea) fun Unicorn Tears purse that triggered people to told me that I am super Asian. Yo whatever bro! And the heels? It's pretty invisible, I wear it just so that my legs look longer, and I hope they do look longer, right?

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Chicago, IL